a pair of italy stories

In the fall of 1993 I went to Italy with a bunch of fellow American architecture students. A lot of them were hippies, but I wasn’t. I was a closeted, scared introvert. Closeted might be too severe a word because I honestly didn’t know where I was sexuality speaking. I hadn’t been with another man, but I was very curious. The two stories I’ll share really don’t relate aside from happening in Italy. I suggest you try to divine some cosmic significance from their pairing. You know, for kicks.

Story 1:

We were in the architecture studio working on our final projects for the semester. The hippies were drinking coffee, listening to something college-y, talking about how much they learned about a different culture like the Real World housemates do on the last episode of a season. They say insightful things like, “I never knew I was a bigot! This experience has really opened my eyes! I never would have thought I could have a gay friend! I thought Aaron would be having ass sex every minute of every day! Wow! Gays are people now!” My American hippy classmates were slightly less caricature-esque in their debriefing of the semester.

One of the hippies asked me what I was going to do after graduation. I was only a semester away from graduation, where most of the other students were juniors. I told him that I would probably, you know, get a job…doing architecture. The guy who asked me said, “Have you ever listened to the lyrics to ‘Once in a Lifetime’? That’s going to be you… ‘This is not my beautiful house. This is not my beautiful wife. How did I get here?’ Man.” I imagine he said “man” like a stoner hippy, although that might be unfair. “You’re going to wake up one day and realize you sold your soul to Corporate America.” I was listening to a lot of Talking Heads then, so I knew the song. I hadn’t heard the meaning behind the song until then. That sentiment still hits me in the chest plate whenever I hear it.

Story 2:

We lived in a small town outside of Florence. If we wanted to take a day-trip, we took an hour-long train ride in. One Saturday I went by myself. I did a lot of traveling by myself that semester. I went to shop, to browse the Ufizzi, to go to the Duomo for the fifth or sixth time, to sit in a piazza sketching, and to just be in Florence. I sat in the piazza next to the Duomo watching the gypsies rob innocent passers-by thinking, “Whaddya know? It looks so obvious. Those gypsies are really good.” I sat on a concrete planter or bench. I felt a mild, lonely melancholy, the kind of melancholy a person feels on a sunny fall day where lawns have blankets of brown and red leaves and the bright sun gives no warmth, where the day is so quiet that a person might feel like if he listened hard enough he could hear ants crawling in the cracks in the cold sidewalks. A guy sat down next to me and pulled out his cock for me to look at. I got up and ran in to the Duomo.

I looked for that concrete planter or bench when Jerry and I went back last year, but I didn’t find it.